Shattered into a Thousand Pieces

I know i did something wrong last night & i'd do anything to give back. I'm sorry i let those who cared about me down. But i was caught up in the moment not knowing what i was doing. All the hurt, the pain, the sorrow i had disappeared. I don't do these things much, & i'm gonna keep it that way. But when i found out that someone special did more worst things than i did, my heart shattered into a thousand pieces. I couldn't believe it. At first i thought you were joking about it. But when you texted me back that you promise to God. I went blank, like that feeling were all emotion run through your head in such a fast time. I just started breaking down, face on my pillow all ballin' out. I never shed that much tears in such a long time. I guess when you love someone so much that happens. I can't manage to still think about what you said. I delete that text from the moment i saw it. I hate him for changing you, i hate you for changing. Each day that goes by i know i'm gonna be thinking about you. I still love you. Even though i have no chance. But i'll tell what i would've done if i had that chance. I would've started calling you babe, like how i wanted to. I would've made so much time for us to meet up & spend time, maybe meet your parents. I would've stop all the dumb arguments, & i would've put all my trust, heart, honesty, & love into our relationship, to make up for everything i had done in the pass. I'm sorry it happen this way. I wish every night on 11:11 for you to come back. But i guess you never will. But you know i'll always have you in my heart. No matter what you've done in the pass. I'm gonna try to understand all of it.

Nicole, i love you.